Do you ever just feel so broken down that it's hard to even put up a fight anymore? I know you do, because we all do. Whether it's arguing with your mom (okay mom FINE I'll clean my room) or something more serious, everyone loses a fight at some point.
For me it's the fight to stay healthy. I can honestly say I've given up. The other day I was at the rec center (not playing soccer, not running on the track...not doing anything I shouldn't be), and I realized how little I could do there. I can't do half of the upper body weights, because my shoulder started to ache. I got off the bike after half and hour when a sharp pain in my ankle won over. After two sets on the leg press, I realized no variation or shift of weight ceased the persistent ache in my knee. I left the gym, exhausted not physically but emotionally, and woke up the next morning at 3am to a searing pain in my hip and a throbbing in my knee, as I have every morning since winter started.
So yeah, I've given up. I've tried continuing with my workout regimen, and that didn't work. After leaving the soccer team, I tried time off, and that didn't work, not to mention made me miserable. So finally, I compromised, and only did lighter exercises at the gym...but that didn't work. Finally I stopped to think, if none of these work, I might as well do the thing that makes me happiest- and that's playing soccer and running and lifting. So that's exactly what I'm going to do. And hopefully, I'll realize that this is a bad idea sooner than later.
All I can say is, props to the people who can overcome serious illnesses and diseases, because when you feel like your in an uphill battle with your own body, it becomes very easy to give up on yourself.
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